This week, my week is kind of already off to a weird start. Since last week I have been having very random, all too real dreams, that keep waking me up every morning terrified about what exactly is fact in my reality. I’ve had nightmares before, pero estas pesadillas are like nothing I’ve ever experienced before. There have been mornings when I don’t even want to open my eyes because I’m afraid the awful things I’ve been dreaming are actually true. Hoy, por ejemplo, after waking up from one such experience I was so distraught my heart was pounding and I was almost at the point of tears. After realizing it was “just a dream” I took what I thought was my shaver into the restroom with me and began to rub shaving cream all over my face. When I went to shave I realized what I actually brought into the restroom was the case for my glasses.
That woke me up! ¡Qué burradas!
Now don’t go getting all worried about me. In truth, I think it’s the patch I’ve been wearing for the past eight days. You see, after years of being a regular smoker I’ve finally made the decision to quit. I am doing so by wearing the patch, and while things have been going pretty smoothly otherwise – the cravings have diminished significantly – the nightmares are now starting to freak me out. I should also note that the box clearly says you should not wear the patch overnight if you notice it is disruptive to your sleep. Until now, like in so many other aspects in my life, my reaction has been pretty much “ah… I can handle it.” I’m not so sure anymore.
I think after tonight I’ll be removing the patch every night!
Yet, my question is not necessarily about the chemicals that are causing me to have these nightmares, but about what exactly dreams are meant to be interpreted as? I’ve heard that if you don’t want a nightmare to come true you should vocalize it by telling someone about it out loud. I guess in some way, you telling someone what you dreamt is supposed to cancel out the nightmare and prevent it from coming true. I won’t repeat my nightmares because I don’t want to, but I am considering this my way of vocalizing all of those nightmares.
But tell me, what do you think about dreams and nightmares and what they mean?